Updated: Jan 10
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As we move into the motherload Capricorn pile up and eclipses over the next couple of months, I want to share and explore my personal experience. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I’m sure you all have been seeing and hearing all about 2020 and the historic movements and embraces of our sky gods. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ I feel that the essence can only be truly distilled in sharing experiences. I invite you to share as well. I’ll be discussing some deep healing work I’ve been doing over the past year, that will continue into 2020. Some of it is my own, some of it has been ancestral and all of it has been karmic. ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ My grandmothers have been in my dreams frequently lately. It's going to be very important to connect with the grandmother energy during this time.
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The Root ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ The Root Chakra (Muladhara) ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Significance: Security, Safety, Connection to Ancestors, Survival, Karma, Kundalini... ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Color: Red (or Black) ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ Natal Chart Equivalent: The IC (Imum Coeli) or The Nadir ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ A brief introduction to the context, in July 2018, the solar eclipse on 7/13/18 conjunct the root of my being at 24° Cancer (also on my natal Ceres), and on that day, a physical condition (a pilonidal cyst) formed. Look it up, it’s gross, thanks opposing Pluto! ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ The overarching lesson...root chakra issues!
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Today was my paternal grandmother's birthday. She was born on December 31, 1911 and passed on July 27, 1998.
As a child of the Great Depression, the traits carried forth into her adulthood included frugality, austerity and resource conservation. We were always encouraged to clean our plates and to save our money. She was a proud, stoic and formidable woman.
Most of our ancestors from her lineage came from a small town in Sicily. Historically, Sicily is one of the most invaded, pilfered and ravaged nations in Europe. Over and over, resources were stolen and the women were raped. Imagine the security, safety and fear ingrained in my ancestors as a result of these conditions. Imagine these traumas being carried forward into my grandmother's lineage, especially for those born during The Great Depression.
Imagine inheriting these ancestral traumas and wounds, and learning about them because of a physical manifestation in your own body. Based on my healing work this year, I know that this contributed to the root chakra healing and physical manifestation I experienced, which I discussed in the last post in this series. It was up to me to incorporate ancestral healing/clearing in my own healing journey.
I'll discuss how I did this in upcoming posts.
Today, I want to honor my grandmother and my ancestors, and thank them for the opportunity, the responsibility, the realizations and the experience. Happy Birthday, Mom-Mom Jennie.
Please share your ancestral healing experiences! Comment below or check out the series on my blog (link in profile). Take a moment to honor your grandmothers and ancestors on this eve of a new decade.
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When the pilonidal cyst formed, it was PAINFUL! I couldn’t sit, I had no idea what was happening, and I was scared. As I began sharing with family what was happening, my Dad knew exactly what it was and suggested some potential remedies. Same lineage as my grandmother (last post above) ancestral trauma repeats much? I began the home remedy, this thing called a sitz bath, and after about 2-3 treatments it began to work, and the cyst began to open. When this began, I was overcome with emotions I hadn’t ever experienced. The release was potent, and shook me to my core.
The drainage and release took about a week, and then it healed and I was back to normal. It wasn’t over.
It recurred over and over and over, sitz became my new best friend, and I should have bought stock in CVS. It took over everything.
I began a mentorship program with the lovely Colleen St. Michaels during this time, and when I told her about my cyst/root issues, she immediately told me about Dr. Theresa. More on Dr. Theresa, and my Network Chiropractic healing journey in the next post...
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The Healing - The Final Cut
...continued from Tuesday.
Dr. Theresa McReynolds is a local Chiropractor and healer. Her modalities are Network Spinal Analysis (NSA) and Somatic Respiratory Integration (SRI), both of which focus on the energy centers located along the spine, the breath and the body's natural ability to heal. I began working with her in January of 2019, and still see her once a week. The healing journey with her has been challenging and remarkable. In addition to the ancestral healing, I learned that I wasn't fully embodied. I think that the two go hand in hand.
One of the healing methods she introduced to me is Ho'oponopono. I hadn't heard of this before we began working together. It is powerful. Every morning I repeated the mantra, and recited a prayer she provided to me.
The mantra goes like this:
Please forgive me.
I love you.
You may know other variations in which the order is different, however this is the one I used and the gist is a concept called total responsibility. An individual takes on responsibility not only for his or her own actions, but for everyone's. This was instrumental in the ancestral healing and clearing process. The ripple effect of this healing and clearing, I have heard, is 7 generations into the past and 7 generations into the future. This became my ritual every morning for months, and during this time, the cyst continued to recur. The release continued.
In the Spring of 2019, I decided that it was time to put an end to the cyst, and I had it surgically removed. It was my first surgery experience. It was scary, painful and a long recovery. Throughout my recovery, I continued with the Ho'oponopono mantra and prayer, and also set up a crystal grid honoring my ancestors and the ancestral healing process. I stopped when I felt the healing and clearing were complete.
At this point, I feel the healing and clearing are complete. I can only hope that my efforts have worked, and that my sisters, my niece and future generations in our lineage will be free of these wounds and trauma. As I write this, the Moon is waxing full, and a lunar eclipse will occur at the same degree of Cancer (20°) where all of this began during the solar eclipse in July of 2018, on the root of my birth chart.
Writing this series has allowed me to reflect back on the last year and a half, and to sit in honor, grace and gratitude. 2019 was the most emotional and vulnerable year of my life, perfectly in line with the collective energies that have been pushing us into facing our shadows, honoring our karma, feeling our emotions, healing our inner child and nurturing ourselves and those we love. Getting more in touch with The Root. Today's eclipse brings closure to an ancient cycle. The alchemical process of this Ouroboros has left me aware of an eternal connection to my lineage, and of our own innate power to heal.